Birthday Musings

I want to be vibrant, alive and feisty. No more; ” oh, I didn’t get much sleep last night”, “Oh Caspian is too…. , we can’t come”. Bugger that. Tomorrow I am Mid-aged, half way to 90. I want to be old, healthy, robust. Damn it- I want to make 100! To be very much … Continue reading Birthday Musings

A year on

At last. The respite and holiday care disaster is almost over. We finally received a new NDIS plan with the capacity for Caspian to have holiday care. Hurrah! I cried for 20 seconds in relief and then…. Nothing. A victory for now perhaps, but the foolish trust I had placed in bureaucracy has been burned … Continue reading A year on

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and … Continue reading Invictus

Iceberg

If only this was a scratch and sniff page. You could then get a whiff of the vomit I just retched onto the page as I started writing this blog post. If I told you that I can no longer afford to send my son to special needs vacation care or respite because it’s gone … Continue reading Iceberg

Lies

There seems to be something magical about ones early 40’s. Have you breezed through your early 40’s without a hitch or a glitch? Bloody lucky if you have! The majority of 40 somethings that I hang about with have been stressed beyond belief, challenged in many areas that they used to excel in. It seems … Continue reading Lies

Wishing

I’ve written stacks of wish list plans, “vision statements”. Two I really got right. In 2001 in my first year of practise I wrote a vision statement of my One Day practise. I promptly buried said paper in an avalanche of notes. I spent the next 13 years pretending I didn’t want to have my … Continue reading Wishing

Mending

Woo Hoo! I’m starting to feel better! I no longer feel as though I have fallen into a terrible deep hole.I no longer feel as though I will disintegrate and cease to be. Do you know what suprises me most about my exhaustion adventure? well 2 things…. How incredibly interlinked mental health and physical health … Continue reading Mending