I have fallen down the rabbit hole.
I have had one of those weeks where I have learnt too much.
I have been painfully and somewhat unwillingly stretched. It is food, again. My passion, my nemesis. I have spent quite a number of years hearing people talk about the GAPS diet, the RPA allergy diet, the Specific Carbohydrate diet…. And so on. Activate your nuts (hmmm) ferment your cod liver oil….unfermented soy is evil, supplements are crappy, only use superfoods (like barley grass?). I have happily stuck my fingers in my ears and Sung. I love my soy lattes.
Ignorance is not bliss. We only change when we have to, and sometimes not even then.
Caspian seems unable to tolerate the beautiful soy cream I found that has a natural 6:1 ratio ( manna from heaven in keto speak). The amazing high fat, low carbohydrate organic preservative free organic desiccated coconut seems to be labelled incorrectly and therefore is giving Caspian seizures and asthma! It is not fair!! He is soon to be dairy, soy, gluten and coconut free… what fat will remain? There are only so many nuts and avocados a little boy will eat. I know that with healing will most likely come tolerance, to wheat and dairy and soy… but that takes time. And so I finally and somewhat unwillingly take the hint… I will look into the specifics of the GAPS/ Specific carb diet for Caspian and …. Perhaps a miracle will occur. What really worries me is; will my head explode in the process? At the same time as this I have another little boy, Max, who is also imploding. After essentially putting his nutritional needs aside for 3 years it all came to a head this week with crazy emotions and wild behaviour. I have finally decided to check out the Royal Prince Alfred Hospital allergy clinic elimination diet. Groan. More stretching and chasing disappearing rabbits. This diet is based on reducing artificial and natural chemicals in food. It aims to reduce troublesome behaviour, eczema, asthma etc.. The plan is to slowly get the body used to the natural chemicals whilst keeping unwanted symptoms at bay. I found out about the diet 12 years or so ago, had Max assessed 3 years ago and did nothing. I have always wondered how we” break” and end up reacting to natural products like broccoli, mangos and bananas. Does this diet really resolve the underlying issues? That is where the GAPS and specific carbohydrate diets come into play. Perhaps it is all a weird dance, and that between all the diets like this in the world there is a wonderful solution. Of course the real question was never actually asked, how did we get here in the first place? What has gone so wrong with our world and our guts, that we need these dietary solutions?
In all the madness I have been gifted with help. Online Facebook pages for each diet type, a local organic shopper like me has an epileptic child on the GAPS diet, a wonderfully talented mum that is running workshops on the elimination diet! Wow. A wonderful blogger from thousands of miles away has been sharing her deep wisdom of epilepsy, asthma and healing with food. And all along, 3 dear, dear friends that are doing these diets already… and will willingly hold my hand and help me as I find my way out of this hole I find myself in.
I don’t want to change and grow and be stretched. And yet, I look down and my legs seem further away, I am not the same person as I was at the beginning of the week.